The Off Button
// August 13th, 2008 // Blog
Can someone help me locate it please?
You see, I lost the manual that came with my body. It was on loan to my parents, but I think they threw it out with some old baby toys when I entered secondary school – which explains the totally horrendous awkward teenager phase that started around the same time.
Maybe some of you still have your user guides, and could help a sista out?
It's a very specific button. For my emotions. Not the girly, hormonal kind. No… It's for those gut feelings that seem to originate from the solar plexus.
For the past week, this bulging mass of nerves and vessels have been positively pulsating 24/7, and it's beginning to drive me mad. It's not the subtle kind of “hmm, I have a strange feeling…” feeling. It's more like: “WooOOooop! WoooOOOop! Strange feeling alert! STRANGE FEELING ALERT! Man the life boats! Ova and stem cells first!”.
I feel like something is going to happen at any moment. I feel expectant (no, not expecting… a totally different abdominally-centered feeling). Or maybe I just really want something to happen.
But nothing is happening. N-O-T-H-I-N-G. And without a somethingness to expunge these feelings, the nothingness is eating away at my insides. Often I sense the waves of nerve fire reverberating off my heart and stomach. And depending on my general mood, this has either resulted in an extra spring in my step, or a slow descent into teary madness. Tch, women, eh?
So, could someone help me find the off button?
Or alternatively… give my solar plexus something worth pulsating over?
Thanks in advance.